I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki: Further Conversations with My Psychiatrist

Whenever depression or emptiness came calling, I was all too eager to open the door of self-pity & go right inside.

When Baek Sehee started recording her sessions with her psychiatrist, her hope was to create a reference for herself. She never imagined she would reach so many people, especially young people, with her reflections. I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki became a runaway bestseller in South Korea, Japan, China & Indonesia, & reached a community of readers who appreciated depression & anxiety being discussed with such intimacy.
Baek's struggle with dysthymia continues in I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki.

And healing is a difficult process; the inner conflict she experiences in treatment becomes more complex, more challenging. With this second book, Baek Sehee reaches out to hold the hands of all those for whom grappling with everyday despair is part of a lifelong project, part of the journey.

Baek's sessions intensify as her inner conflicts become more complex & challenging. Through her dialogues with her psychiatrist & reflective micro-essays following each session, Baek traces the patterns of her anguish, makes progress, weathers setbacks, & shares the revelatory insights that come just when she has almost given up hope.

I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki offers itself to the social media generation as a book to hold close, a friend who knows that grappling with everyday despair is part of a lifelong journey.

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Born in 1990, Baek Sehee studied creative writing in university before working for 5 years at a publishing house. For ten years, she received psychiatric treatment for dysthymia (persistent mild depression), which became the subject of her essays, & then I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki, books 1 & 2.